Sunday, June 21, 2009
父の日 Happy Father's Day
Daddy
Thanks a lots to u...
Thanks for owes understanding me
Thanks for owes supporting me
Thanks for owes giving me opinions & suggestions
Thanks for wiling to b my audience
Thanks for owes sacrifiying urself for my own benefits
Thanks for owes stood aside me
Thanks for been my father...
When every chilren say "Thank you for everything"
to their parents
what d parents answer was:
"There is no Thank you between d relantionship of
a child & a father or a mother "
I may not able to fel tat meaning wif understanding
but I appreciate what I have
frm what my parents gave to me
THANK YOU...
Happy Father's Day
あいするきみたち
Wushu Trailer~The Young Generation 武术之少年行
“武术是一门艺术,不是用来攻击对方,伤害对方。
武术的意思就是武学中的艺术,
武中有艺,艺中有术。
表现了它的动作风格和感情。”
“在武术中,谁胜谁负是没有意思的。”
“武术的四个基本是:速度,弹跳力,平衡和柔软性。”
“选择了武术的人,同时选择了一生的对手,就是自己。
每次比赛你就要比上次的你做得更好。”
“每个人都有机会去选择,只是怎样做决定才是最重要的。
但是,
选择是有限制的。”
曾经
我师兄告诉过我:
“不管谁有多强多弱,要相信自己是最棒的那一位。”
而“最强的对手是自己”这句话
我始终还是无法理解此意义
或许我明白了一半,也或许我还是完全都感受不到
或许
到了以后
我才会了解它的含义
对我而言
可以为它而活,为它而牺牲
就是没办法
因为它而放弃
因为这是我所选择的路
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
純朴のむそう
我有一个我自认为我人生中
很大很大的夢想
它,虽然不很起眼
但却很遥远
我曾经成功的往它
向前踏出我的第一步
那时可说是我往夢想跨出了第一步
可是我却让它变成了
一个
非常丑陋的开始
留下了
充满遗憾及懊悔的回忆
过程中
我被提醒了
我开始清楚看见了自己
那时是有多么的懦弱
多么的狼狈
多么的不该
多么的没用
因为经不起压力
跨不过心中的障碍
我毁了我自视为神圣的开端
。。。。。。
现在
我将会开始我的第二步
这一次
我真的不想再像当年那样
软弱,无能
“后悔一次就已经够了,我不想再后悔多一次了”
“犯一次错误也就够了,我不想再从犯了”
虽然如此
我心中难免还是埋伏了恐惧
那一份
“自信”
我还是不够坚定
我还是会怀疑我自己
这几天
都会接受到不少
很伤我的讽语
虽说已不是第一次体会到
听到,感受到
可是我就是觉得
“ehh...不要太过份喔”
我真的被触怒到了
可是
“要忍,要忍!忍忍忍!!”
“他只是想刺激你,所以你才会做好它”
“忍一时风平浪静,退一步海阔天空”
我是有在退了
可是我心中的火还是在燃烧着
很有可能会有火山爆发的一天
一个不小心可能会把古晋给烧了
一个不小心可能会把古晋给烧了
我并非不是不知道他的用意
我也并非不是不知道我的表现不很好
我承认
我是队里中
算是最差的一位
算是应该会拉下这队伍名誉
的老鼠屎
我当然很不想很不想
非常的不想会酱
我没把这梦想告诉他们
那是因为
1)我不想他们用它来压我,催我,施加压力
2)我没那资格去拥有这梦想
这个世界是很惨酷的
这个社会的理念是非常现实的
“有能力的人就是胜利者,没友实力的人就是注定要被淘汰的”
我就是那个会被淘汰的失败者
在这一圈
我没有实力,也没有底细
就像他所说的
“她只会死背罢了”
长成傻呼呼的样子,脑筋迟疑的我
也不想酱!!!
但其实
我也很想可以与一群习武的朋友一起
抱着同样的梦想
一起努力
那种感觉
很感人很快乐很帅
可是在这队伍里
我却感受到无比的寂寞
那种很空很恐惧的感觉
或许是我个性有时很内向
很难懂
所以我总会觉得我好像
跟我队友他们并没有像其他队伍一样
那么融恰
心里真的很羡慕那种情景
我的心理调整是整队伍里
最差劲的一位
我的梦想心理调整一定要好
不然将会毁掉一切
偏偏我就烂在这
我也总觉得
我好像根本没有为它而很拼命
好像我从没付出过最大的努力
认为
我要练到自己有受伤为止
那样才算:我有努力过
虽然如此
我还是很想要实现它
它有时间的限止
我更要实现它
我不想因为我是会被淘汰的人
而放弃它
“曾经后悔过可以忍受,后悔一生却只会带来一连串的痛苦”
我不想让我人生留下遗憾=死的不明目 ==
我也好希望
我也可以像他一样
奇迹也可以发生在我身上
或许我现在是那么的渴望实现它
或许以后我也有可能会对它而不再热情
或许你会觉得我花太多心思在它身上
担心我会因此而不小心忽略学业
不过我不希望我的人生就只是
读书-做工-等等
过那种平凡中的平凡的过程生活
就是因为有这个梦想
我才觉得它会添彩我的人生
所以
真的很希望你能谅解我
让我为它而付出
好不好?
我不想知道我的结局会怎样
我只想为它而拼
只想用最纯朴,最原实的
心
去追随它
Gathering~visiting to Swimburne
Jodi & me
meet new frend--Fabian(d guy)
d girl....siapa tu? ==''
meet new frend--Fabian(d guy)
d girl....siapa tu? ==''
Jodi,me,Sze Ting & Sarina(at Swimburne)
playboy? OR barley?(Yee Ming=薏米)OR...Rahman Ahmad Yahman??
haha ==
HAPPY to b wif u buddies~
& meet new frens
wander around Swimburne
learn to knw d feeling of been a colleger
&
can c lots of handsome guy
XD
Saturday, June 6, 2009
UnpLeAsANt Malacca TRip 绝望的马六甲旅程
31 May,I leave to Johor-Malacca(31/5-5/6)
to participate in d National Wushu Junior Champioship,Malacca
on 3-4 June 2009
D whole way road to thr,
I was worry
worry tat whether we were able to compete d game?
Bcs we were sabotage by WAS
*WAS=wushu association Sarawak
We hv wrote d complaint letter
but no news reply to us
our Terengganu president then told us
jst go thr & decide everythg
& so we leave...
W.Yung,one of my teammates
&
LCC & David J(wear spec)
I arrived JOHOR
D guys reali can makan looooooots of thg
& frm their description of seducing me 2 eat
JOHOR'S FOODS REALI TASTE NICE
*they told their satay were very Q & soft
not lk Kch,hard lk stone aneh
*dun knw hv 2 bite hw many times
& d Mee Jawa,Mee goreng,Mee blablabla
& d chicken meat
r all spicy & nice
tis was wat my teammates & coach described
D hotel's room's bathroom tat I stayed
my room for 1 nite at Johor b4 going to Malacca
*our teammates as well
d 4 of us r frm KCH
d rest=Sibu
Do u ever c a malay man wear such a tall songkok at Marry Brown???
my coach & LCC(zzz)
I'm at Malacca hotel's room now wif d other 2 Sibu girls
ohhhhh
history replay agen
I & my sukma fren hv 2 experienced d early mrng arounfd 5am sumthg
2 hear our new style of "alarm clock"
Malacca ship musuem
lolz
actually we nid 2 pay entry fee $$$
but
we din
bcs dunno who is d 1 who brg us in
by climbing over d tiang
then
when we r out
sum1 minta us d $
then all of us
14 ppl(include 2 coach)
WE QUICKLY RAN AWAY!!!
LOL
Sibu's coach-Gibert
dunno who's camera
put apa flash light lahh
in such a bright,bright,bright day
making my pic came out lk tis
gahhh!!!
coach bcum half!!
Lolz....
luk carefully
clearly
they were acting lk
making an advertisement
==''
no photo taking r allowed inside
d old Indian hag wil warn u
very tiring to climb up so high
under a hot day
& I wonder
hw cum d 3 guys of my teammates
can tahan sooooo mch?
they were fun & excited to go around Malacca's historical places
but I macam no interested
tis making me thk tat
I should hv change my gender wif them
I should b a guy & they should b girls..
mayb bcs my feling of going travelling bcum numb
another kubu pertahanan at downhill there
they r playing gun
hand-made gun
use rubber band to shoot
*wat an ages stil play gun....
They waited down thr d kubu pertahanan
wanted to shoot Gibert & Collin=Sibu athlete
but
kep on waiting
GIBERT din appear!!!
they hv went downhill thr to d opposite shopping mall
..............
my teammates:"gotta shoot Collin!!"
*bcs Collin saw us thr,but he din told Gibert to cum to us
Chicken rice ball
guess whr we hv our lunch?
D place whr MY FM have their Chinese New Year MV
shooting venue
& up floor there
reali got ppl shooting film
& is one of our Malaysia Wushu athlete was acting!!!
& tat guy
I knw him,he knw me
but
we nvr talk
*sobs
& tis was wat I heard they said
bcs I was dump alone to tek k their bags...
*cry
my 4th day breakfast outside hotel
Gibert bring me & his athlete 2 eat
"Zhu Chang Feng"
& "cha sio pao"
& "tie guang ying''(tea)
1st time I ate "Zhu Chang Feng"
not bad
:)
:)
hmm
tis is my 3/6/09 's lunch
ASAM FISH
I dun reali knw or lk to eat spicy thg
but I dun 1 2 waste d $
so I ate it
ok taste lahhh...
since is hotel's promotion food
d 3 of us
me,Collin & Xue Hua
took Xiao Qian's pig
into d toilet=our girls bathroom
to mek d pig sembahyang...
Collin even record d mrng's pray
& play it....
& mek it s his alarm clock's music...
==''
I wonder
is he going to change his race?
lol
=my coach,W.yung,LCC & David
Sibu team unsatisfied
they oso went down d shops
& each brought a hand made gun
to revenge!!!
ohh GOD
even Gilbert oso join in d battle
then I b d reporter
warn them
"NO SHOOTING ON REPORTER!!"
so I wil not kena shoot by plenty of rubber band + s
We went A-Famosa
They went Water World to play water games
leave only me,my coach & Uncle Chua=our team manager
*I dunno hw to swim!
go in thr
lemas nia!!
RM40 FOR 1 PERSON!!!
wakao...
wif RM40
I dunno can buy hw many packet mashmallow
& chocolate...
Cow boy town
sat shuttle & went to Club house
spending RM1 to sit d shuttle
& RM5 to hv a milo at thr
4 waiting until 2 pm sumthg
baru go bek 2 water world
wat a waste of time
tiring of waiting
d jag mek me drank at least
4 cups of milo
full
I save d $ for my lunch
we,our team CNT COMPETE
our president fight 4 d last chance 4 us 2 compete
but unfortunely he & d rest failed
D end
we,12 athlete end up no participation
& visiting Malacca d whole 2 days
*half 2 days lah
To tel d truth
eventhough we r frm Srwk
We representing Terengganu
bcs we r import athlete
& we,CMAA & Sibu wushu association
were not a member of WAS
so we were Terengganu wushu athletes
but RIDICULOUS is
WAS stop us frm participate tis comptt
bcs of tis reason
"We r still under them,we still their member"
bullshit
last time,WAS conduct comptt
we 1 2 join,they restrict us by saying tat
"we r not d member"
now
we 1 2 join Junior Championship
they restrict us by telling tat
"we r d member"
talking in 2 different ways!!!
then,
d other state oso agree wat WAS mention
so
our chance of participation drop frm 60 % to 10 %
..........
I was moody,mad,unwiling,unsatisfied,agitated,unprepared & blur
moody bcs we cnt join
Junior championship is my 1st & my last
*nxt year I'm going to b 19
mad bcs d quality of tis comptt bcum lower & lower
* if we join,we hv high % of winning
unwiling bcs we came so far frm Srwk to Malacca
lastly end up by sitting bsd thr been stupiak
watching
unsatisfied bcs we don hv d chance 2 show our talents
agitated bcs of WAS's artifice
if bcs of scaring us to win,jst say it out
dun jst hind behind,planning sucks artifice
to drop us down
we r oso Srwk athlete
if we don compete
Srwk athletes can build up?!
Srwk wushu stil can b on top?!!
unprepared bcs 1st time we hv tis type of situation in participation
no testing of hall carpet,no feling of compete,no preparation of decorating,
no warming up,no last practise...
blur bcs dunno should I fel relieved or not?
I join tis compt
onli 3 reasons
1)beat down WAS
2)to write down my wushu records
3)to show a better view of mine to Master Peng
I owes show bad,sucks image to Master Peng...
I jst 1 her to hv a gud image of me to hers
I jst 1 her to kep d gud of mine
& 4get d bad of mine
I thought I can beat down WAS athlete
but once I heard Taijijian female A group result
I'm scared
bcs she got 2nd
if she got 2nd
impossible I wil b d 1st
*eventhough I din hv d chance to watch taiji events
I din set high aim to myself
s long s I can beat down WAS
d rest of d rivals
can b wait
I'm not gud enough
& my standard is not high too
but I oso hope 2 win
hope 2 give a nice record of female taiji
to my team
I don hope 2 b d 1 to pull down d name of our team
I oso hope tat my coach & my teammates
at least
believe me
support me
tat I wil not lose tat wrost
dun say such words lk
"If Shirley Tok,I dunno ohh"
tis onli meking me
thk tat
"m I reali tat wrost?"
"m I reali cnt b believe,cnt b trusted?"
W.Yung oso hv d same feling lk me
bcs he oso worry his spear events standard
but he is stronger than me
better than me
bek 2 topics,
Negeri Sembilan won 28 golds=1st
Malacca won 18 golds=2nd
lastly
Sarawak,3 golds=3rd
If we join,
even wif 4 golds only
we can b 3rd & WAS hv no chance to stay top 3
verrrrrrrrrrry funny
I'm oso Srwkian,but I hv to fight wif Srwkian
I'm tired of tis
WAS don even understand we,athletes's felling
we struggle so hard,we spending times & stamina
to train well
but wat we get?
stopping by showing talents
block our ways to our dream...
unable 2 represent our own state is hurting
but unable to continue compete for dream is killing ur heart...
D hall & venue of competition
Pei Feng Middle Sch,Malacca
sch hall
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